Year Nineteen: Personal Thoughts

[Mark]

(Birthday Thoughts)

*Pulls hair out*

Matt D. is a bitch. I haven't talked to ANYONE since Tribal Council, but it appears that he's deceived us. I just can't believe this idiocy... I sure hope that they have some 4-way alliance against Matt O. and Tyler, or else this will be a boring game.

I'm pretty much doomed for ninth place now. I would LOVE to go to everyone and strategize some more, but that just won't be happening. I have to remember the advice I received months ago about what to do when you're outnumbered... be UTR and hope for the best.

That's what I'm going to have to do. Even though it's VERY likely that I'm going to be voted out when I'm in Disney, and that there's no one I can really turn to for any aid at this point, I have to keep somewhat uninvolved and hope that I could hopefully be the last "outcast" standing. Odds of it? A trillion in one. But I'm the last hope for any chance of this game ending in excitement.

As soon as Matt D., Ryan, and Lexie come online, I'm talking to all three of them. I'm 90% sure the vote for Tori was from Matt D., which places him in the bitch list along with Jamie, Tyler, and Katie, but if something wacko happening... eh.

Be it as it may, here's how I predict Asteria to play out. Hopefully I'm wrong:

9th: Mark
8th: Ryan
7th: Lexie
6th: Matt D.
5th: Katie
4th: Stacy
3rd: Jen
2nd: Tyler
1st: Matt O.

I'm hoping I'm wrong about this list, just like I was wrong about Zaza surviving the first Xavante Tribal Council, and about Jen being voted out... thrice.

[Mark]

(All w's = the letter to the right of n. All ;'s = cowwa's.)

Here's what I've thought...

I need to do something risky in order to potentially go farther. Something... incredibly risky.

Maybe throming this next challenge and making myself a very likely candidate for being voted out.

Let's just consider the pro's and con's to immunity in Year 19...

Pros:
-I am guaranteed at least eighth place
-I have more time for new alliance possibilities to crop up
-I won't be stressed out in Disney

Cons:
-I cannot win the Final 8 immunity
-People would potentially vote me out as the challenge threat for winning 3 immunities
-It may be too late for new options to be open

Now... for throwing immunity...

Cons:
-I would be landing 9th place
-Your favorite player would be gone
-Only 2 people would remain that I would be rooting for

Pros:
-I can somehow charm my way to prevent people from voting for me anyway
-I can win Final 8 and Final 7 immunities
-I'll have something to think about through Disney
-I'll have a non-angry Final Words to give
-I'll place with my "twin", Tori

Eh... I'm sorta undecided about the next immunity. my philosophy with the immunity rule is to definitely avoid building up a streak, and not being able to win the next immunity. With that being said, I'm in a very vulnerable position and am 99% likely to be voted out if I do not win immunity. Then again... going back to what was said in the Pregame Advice that Sam gave to me in Day -2...

I cannot make myself a threat while I'm in a minority. That pretty much means I have to do dumbly on this challenge. It's not going to be enough to get a "threat" image off of my head, but it's a start.

Conversations are going to have to change. Up to this point, nearly every conversation I've had seems to be about who we're voting for and whatnot. I have to change into a charmer and hope that people can't find the courage to vote for me or something. I'm just not going to talk to Jen, though. I voted for her three times so obviously I do not agree with her placement in this game.

So far, I've only talked to Katie and Stacy. my conversation with Katie was sorta strategy-ish, but my conversation with Stacy is my first true step into my new game. I told her about my insecurity about the vote, I asked her to tell me if I'm going to be voted out so I don't stress during Disney, and then I just brought up random, non-game related topics. If I continue this, either I'll get more friends, or people will think I'm not so threatening. I'm banking on the latter, but at this point, the former would be pretty cool...

[Mark]

(Day 89 Thoughts)

I have a chance of surviving... if Katie's telling me the truth.

My biggest mistake in Wonderland was trying to get Tyler and his gang to vote for minor immediately after Annette was voted out. I had no idea what to do because I was never in that kind of situation before, and I didn't know what I had to do in order to protect myself.

I got called out for it, and I became the next person being voted out... for three Tribal Councils. Immunity served the purpose of postponing my departure.

Well... Ryan may have done the same thing. Katie claims that he approached Matt D., trying to vote me out. And Katie heard of the plan and didn't want to vote me out...

I may have new love for Katie after this vote. But that's only IF she's telling me the truth.

My new strategy of avoiding game talk may just work in my favor. If people see Ryan as a "fucking snake" as I was in Wonderland... he may just get voted out for his duplicity. Then again... I survived two Tribal Councils before I got voted out. That's because of immunity... and if Ryan wins it, then I'm going to be the next one voted out.

Of course, I don't knom if I can trust Katie. This could all be a scheme to get me thinking that I'm safe, only so I don't scramble after the immunity challenge. Add in the fact that I'm leaving for Disney tomorrow, and everything else gets freaky. I won't know if I'm voted out until Wednesday evening... so I really hope that Katie's not lying to me. I fear that she's just trying to make me worked up, just for me to be crushed when I come back on Wednesday.

However, there's nothing I can do but hope that Katie's being truthful. And that things will work out. And that Ryan doesn't win immunity.

And just to be clear: I'm not going to win immunity. I'm not going to shoot myself in the foot again like I did in Wonderland. If I'm voted out, so be it. Immunity would've only made me eight place anyway.

[Sam]

Hopefully I'm wrong:

9th: Mark
8th: Ryan
7th: Lexie
6th: Matt D.
5th: Katie
4th: Stacy
3rd: Jen
2nd: Tyler
1st: Matt O.


congrats, you were wrong. =)

you're pretty good at this surviving the bullet thing lol.