Year 17 Confessional

[Lexie]

Sorry I've been so abysmal with the confessionals lately! I've just been so busy because of my vacation and had like no time. Now that I'm back though, I'll try and give ya the scoop...for as long as I'm still here anyways. Haha.

I have to run but I'll do a confessional for this past year in a little.

[Lexie]

Sooo...this is sorta hard to write knowing what I know now, but I'll try and transport back in time pre-TC! Hehe.

Well, I haven't been in touch with the tribe much, but of course theres lots of stuff going on. Matt D. has left the game on an "adventure" or something.

I've really become close with Tori a lot. Shes such a nice girl, and I think we have a lot in common. I also think we can both probably have a mutually beneficial alliance when it comes down to it. I've talked to Mark a lot lately about working together as well. And of course I still really like Ryan. Hes just a great guy.

Anyhow, the four of us recently decided that we need to make a move soon and work together. I couldn't be more excited. Yes, I'm here to win, but I also just enjoy being around and talking to people whose company I enjoy. And thats Ryan, Tori, and Mark. Matt O too, but hes in a whole other alliance.

Still, the problem here is that we need more than 4 people to form a revolution. Haha. The most likely to turn are, in our opinion, Stacy and Katie. I'm sort of cautious of Katie though, because she hasn't been talking to me as much lately. I really have no idea whats going on there...maybe she heard something that was a lie? Whatever. Stacy is close with Ryan, although apparently they've become less close...which isn't good. I don't think Stacy particularly likes me. We had one brief conversation where she seemed utterly uninterested, so I basically dropped it.

I really have to work hard to get over the stigma of being an "outcast". Especially this late in the game. Its easier for Stacy since she came back when there were tribes and she came to one where they won a lot of challenges and she gave one side a distinct voting advantage. For me, I came back right when the tribes merged, so I have no immunity protection (unless I win it myself) to give me a little while to build bonds. But hey! I'm just happy to be back in it.

The plan right now is for everyone to vote for Lynne. I'm guessing unanimously. I don't really want Lynne to go, surprisingly, I'd much rather have Katie, Matt, Tyler or Stacy go. Oh well. I have to go along for now. Tori, Mark, Ryan, and myself are planning to make our move next week and try and pick up an ally. Hopefully everything works out!

[Lexie]

So looks like its deadlocked tie time between Tori and Lynne...and now Matt D. came back! He better freaking vote out Lynne. Lynne is worthless to everyone's game plan. Although, Matt D. is so dumb he'll probably vote to keep Lynne in and vote out Tori. I've given up trying to work with Matt, he is that fucking dumb. I can't even talk to him after he sold me and Ryan out for no reason. If he is the last Bajau member left, I don't even know what he'll do.

I guess congrats to him for being so worthless that no one else even bothered to vote him out. If Tori goes tomorrow, I will literally cry. I don't know if I'll even be able to play this game anymore. I'm tired of giving it my all, and trying sooo hard, just to have nothing positive happen for me. Its really depressing. If Tori goes, I think I'll just have to sit around and wait to be picked off. Every single time I go to tribal council I try so hard to get people to switch it up and make things fun, but no one EVER goes for it. Or, people do, but the final vote doesn't and betrays us. That finger is pointed at Matt D. and Katie. Bitches.

[Lynne]

I beg to differ Lexie! Lynne was not worthless to anyone's game plan. I could've been the keystone to either side's if someone had played me right had I stayed.

Tori goes next? Predictable and many of that alliance are quick to follow. If I had been kept over Tori I had something she didn't - the trust of the counter alliance. When Ryan spoke to me I was serious with him. I had up until that vote been planning on throning Tyler in F2 for the win. But I was more than open to things and Tyler and Matt O., by their own confessionals, thought I was entirely in their pocketes and would not have seen it coming.

Advice from my first rival: Read some Machievelli *g*

Seriously though, Lexie we didn't get along in the game at all. Rubbed each other the wrong way and what have you. But after its all said and done I do highly respect you as a person and a player. Probably won't ever talk to you again *lol* but I wanted you to know that.

[Lexie]

Thanks, that means a lot to me Lynne! I feel the same way. Its sad we didn't get along better in the game, I really think we're very similar, but maybe thats the exact reason why we didn't?

I'm glad you got to see though that I really didn't want you to go. And I'm sorry when I trashed you and stuff in the game, it was mean of me, but I think everyone did/said stuff they regret. That last part of this confessional was just me at my most frustrated gamewise (sorry Matt D. and Katie!). I really wish a Lynne/Lexie/Ryan/Tori/Mark thing had been organized THIS vote because then we could've done some damage. I really did want to work with you Lynne if Tori had gone. It was just a bad time gamewise because both you and I were on vacations.

Anyhow I think you're great now.