Episode 06 "Glimmer of Hope" Confessionals

[Tyler]

All Episode six confessionals will be stored here

[Tyler]

All according to plan...

Coming back from Tribal...Val was voted out. I am so happy everything worked out the way it did. Even Jose didn't freak out like I originally thought he would.

The good thing about Val being gone is that I now have a *very* good position in my tribe, mainly with Jen, Hockey, and Garrey. I think if we happened to lose the next IC, that Jose would go...and if we lost another, Lew would go.

Jen herself has told me that she doesn't trust Lew, and that she has all the confidence with me. Do I buy this....I think I do. I honestly don't think Jen has what it takes to pull something this major over on me, so I trust her pretty much 100%.

Of course I have my Matt, without whom I would go crazy in this game. (More on that in my next confessional). Yea, I have more love/respect for Matt than anyone I have ever played any game with. Ever.

So for right now, I am doing pretty good in Ovambo....and for once, I feel pretty safe!

yay!

[Tyler]

Why Asteria will probably be my last game in a *LONG* time. (warning....most ungame related, but I had to vent somewhere)


I am officially done with games after this one.

(begins rant)

I came into this game so excited (and still am to a certain extent) but it just seems like the more I think about it, the more I get depressed about the whole online situation. I rarely talk to Katie any more. It seems as if she has to strain to have a conversation with me. I think the game has something to do with it, but theres alot of stuff I probably have no clue about.

With Katie...I dunno. It just seems like...I dunno. I don't know really what I want to type, because I don't want to hurt her feelings if she ends up reading this one day. It's just, I thought out of everyone, Katie was someone I could count on for anything on this stupid online world. She was my rock. Here lately though, I have given up all hope in everything.

I love Patrick, but he too is not very talkative online. I am probably going to end up finishing this game, then creating a new AIM name, and starting over fresh. I am so sick of the fakeness that can come as a result of these games. I am talking mainly about the people that talk to you for the sole purpose of the game, and when it's over, have nothing to do with you. I am just over it.

I am over being online and just sitting in front of the computer screen waiting for Katie to respond to my IM's, or at least hold a decent conversation with me.

The *only* person I can truly count on is Matt....I love him to death. He is the only person I think that is totally interested in me as a person inside and out of this game. I absolutely adore him.

So yea, when this game wraps up for me, I probably won't be around anymore. Maybe I just need to delete AIM altogether when this is over...and I will feel better.

It's a sick addiction, and it doesn't even make me feel good.

Such a waste of time.




/rant

[Sam]

I agree 100%.


After awhile these things get repetitive. Especially since you're about to win your second (in a row?), what else is there to accomplish? After you meet your first group of friends it becomes harder to make more. Actually I'm trying to think if I have like any 100% online best friends from these things... hmm can't think of any. But I do have like at least 20 good acquaintances and I could talk to them occassionally and have good conversation and get caught up on their lives. So I really like that.


Also, I think you've been overdosing on these things lately and too much of anything repulses anyone from it. I mean don't you like play chat minis for two hours a night lol. And with the kind of people that play those things (*cough* undesirables *cough*) no wonder you are getting tired of it. Maybe afterwards take a few months off and see if you are still interested in playing again. Try something else other than Survivor, that's getting kinda boring for me too.


Or you could host a full game! That might be really cool, plus you've done fantastically hosting chat minis. Trust me though - take a month or two off to rest and prepare lol.


If you do want to try another game, you could go to some wierd place like SurvivorFire or Yahoo Groups and apply for a game no one's heard of. That way you'll meet all new people (I've done this a few times and it can be fun) and start fresh.


Though, most people don't keep in contact after Survivor games I've come to find, unless it is someone's first game or they really connect. Hard to maintain friendship I guess without a common thing to discuss.


Or maybe it could be that you've gone ungodly long without meeting new people here lol. Maybe once that happens it'll be rejuvenating.


</way too long response to rant>

[Sam]

I just read through Wonderland again and all those awesome topics you posted in your confessional with the art and the stories that I moved over to the Alumni Forum lol. Those were sweet! Since like everyone else has disappeared (and because I finally realized you were the best), I'm postgamingly awarding you the Best Player of Wonderland! Nobody played it like you did.

[Tyler]

Awwwww...thanks Sam. That means alot coming from you!!!! I will be the first to admit my Wonderland confessional was lackluster...but I am *trying* to do better this time around. (I think I almost have as many confessionals now than I did @ the end of Wonderland!)

Thanks for the kind words

<3 Tyler

[Tyler]

Finally.....we MEET!

First of all, it is 8:37AM, and I am working on like 3 hours of sleep (kicks gem challenge) so work with me here....I may be a little...drowsy.

We met (or Jose met) the Yupik tribe....and it makes me so nervous I can't even begin to talk about it. Kew is on that tribe, and the first mention of him, and our tribal IC chat went insane! haha. I have never met the guy, but apparently he is a very good player. This frightens me because with the exception of my Matt....I had a pretty firm grip on Ovambo!

We can either stay the same, merge...or go to war. I would personally rather stay the same if anything, and just keep the knowledge of this tribe.

A positive note about this tribe is: <3 Laurel/Lynn <3. I love both of those girls, and I hope the feeling is mutual. After that crazy TC in Wonderland (Me, Mark, Lynne, Chuck) where Lynn was booted, I really didn't give her a chance. After the game was over, we talked alot, and she is a very smart girl. I dig her alot. Same with Laurel. She was in Survivor: Mana with me, and came in fourth (I came in third)

Kew IM'd me sometime this morning telling me that his tribe wasn't very interesting/active. It felt a little desperate to me, almost like he was on the outs of his tribe. Another reason I do not want to merge. Although, the longer Kew stays in the game, the longer there is another winner who can be voted off before me!

*wink*

Alas, back to the challenge....more later, and after some much needed sleep.