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« Thread Started on Mar 21, 2006, 11:20pm » | ![[Quote]](http://s4.images.proboards.com/buttons/quote.gif) |
What a wonderful experience! Despite being screwed over, and perhaps making a mistake in trying to make a move, I still don't regret anything I've done in this game.. I think I did exactly what I had to in order to get this far. After merge, I tried to set myself up to get farther in the game than I thought I would with the Xavantes, and it ended up backfiring. However, I think if they were so willing to vote me off anyway, it was the right choice to try to break away from them, because 3rd place or 10th place doesn't matter to me, but getting the opportunity to be in the final 2 would have been amazing and that was what I had been working for in the past couple of years.
So, I'm going to address each of the remaining castoffs individually, from my favorites to least favorites!
Starting with Mark - Mark, I love you to death, but I don't have to say that here because you already know.  You stayed loyal to me to the bitter end, which was way more than I could have asked for. You are so strong and so nice, you are a true All Star. I'm your #1 fan in this game from now on.
Next, Lexie - we've only been together for a few years, but you seem so AMAZING I love you! Haha, !!!! such a cool, SMART, girl.
Next, Ryan - you are uber cool too! And you seem very smart. Show these bitches who's boss.
Next, Stacy - ahh you're such a sweet girl, I just wish you didn't have to listen to Tyler and Matt O's lies.
Next Matt O - Dude, you're full of yourself and you were so willing to vote for me, and I know when you're kissing my ass to try to gain favor, but you're not that bad.
Uhh who's next.. Jen - I'm definitely not cheering for you in this game at ALL. You never put any effort into talking to me.. you don't seem to care about the game at all. It bothers me that you're still in, actually, but I guess it's hard to be incredibly hard at someone who's practically a stranger to you.
Now, Katie - You would have been at the top of this list - strong, smart, and my best friend in the game. But in the course of a few days, you proved yourself to be weak, you made a terrible decision in the game, and you completely broke my trust and displayed yourself to be nothing more than a fake friend. So you're way in the negatives now dear.
Now, Matt D - I have a feeling you're the one who lied to me in that last vote.. but if not, sorry for putting you this low. But voting for me could possibly be the most bone-headed thing I could have imagined from you, and I hate dumbasses, so you're way down here and you'll have to be LUCKY more than anything to get to the end of the game now. Pure coward.
Annddd last, Tyler - I just hope you learn not to play around with people's emotions so much - I'd rather someone not talk to me at all than pretend to be my friend.
But overall, the good people and the good memories make all this worth it! I guess I have a 10th place curse is all! ![[image]](http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v488/SirSam972/photos/wink.gif)
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Tori
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« Reply #1 on Mar 25, 2006, 5:36pm » | |
Update: looking back on my final words a couple days after, I don't know why I was at all hostile towards Tyler. He didn't do anything that the others didn't do too. So, no, I'm not really that mad at him, I just wish he had been more upfront with me, but at the same time, I wish the same about Katie and both Matts.
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~Don't you trust me?~
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« Reply #2 on Mar 29, 2006, 2:12am » | |
I just wanted to thank you again for coming back and giving it another shot. I really, really enjoyed your confessional. Easily one of the best ever written I would say. Reading through it on a semi-daily basis for over two months was an experience. I kind of feel like it's almost a little wierd... just because I know so exactly how the game felt through your own unique experience!
Every update was fantastically written, emotional, and both personal and strategic. Plus it was up-to-date. I really can't say enough about it. Especially from the start to the end of Zaza, this was my favorite place to be. I don't know if it was just that you play the same style of game as I do, or if it was just an amazingly accurate and insightful look into Sinti and Zaza, or just the emotion behind it. I'm going to beg everyone to read your confessional from start to finish. It's interesting not because it was written from like the point of view of the most powerful player making the decisions and telling people what to do. And it wasn't from somebody on the outside who had no idea what was going on and was responding to / writing about lies other people had told.
It was from a different place. The deductions and inferences you made with the information you collected were *surprisingly* accurate. So much that I can't recall something you said that was just false, whereas, I can't go through some people's confessionals without having to remember all the different lies they believe. It was real.
I'm going to be 100% honest, but only because I care lol. If you don't want to read something slightly unpleasant then just skip this paragraph haha. There's a little of the "Dark Ages" of Tori in the beginning Xavante section. I don't mean by quality of confessionals, which might of been my fault (i think i posted once critical when i shouldn't have). The vote to merge with Ovambo was not a good idea. I then asked you for your reason and you gleefully told me "Because Katie said so!" which just made me sad. -_- Because it was so disadvantageous for you. Furthermore, after said event, you sort of went into isolation mode and did the exact opposite of what players should do when they realize they are in the minority - not talk to the other players.
But! All is good, because after that little dry spell, you came back full force. Your new alliance was strong and formidable. Furthermore, your new plotting to gain control was incredibly admirable and I was glad to see some original thought there. It really sucks that you got cut down for it. =/ I really don't think it was a bad move though. It was either give it a shot now and try to gain control, or just wait to be picked off. I'd rather take a 50/50 shot at tenth or top 4 than a sure thing at 6th or 7th. You seemed to know what to do at all the right times, whether it be stay in the background or take control.
Plus your handling of the Ethan situation was nothing short of genius. Way way beyond your years and experience, unless you are truly a Survivor genius and have done this many times before. 
I appreciate your dedication and enthusiasm every single year, you never caused me any trouble, you were appreciative, you were active and social, you were smart and did everything right, and most importantly: you gave it your all. There's nothing more I could ever wish for.
Yeah this got a little sappy / mushy near the end but I just wanted to thank ya. And it is a little wierd cause we don't talk that often on AIM (we should talk more!) and so like I feel like I know you better because of the confessionals than you know me! I guess that's what people on reality tv shows get a lot haha, that the people watching know more about them. ![[image]](http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v488/SirSam972/photos/roll.gif)
That's all I got. talk to ya soon!
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Tori
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« Reply #3 on Mar 29, 2006, 8:50pm » | |
Thanks so much Sam. I do what I do because I enjoy it! I think that's why nobody's ever like "OMG I WASTED SO MUCH TIME ON THIS GAME JUST TO GET Nth PLACE!!", its because the game is fun and people just get upset that they can't have any more fun, haha.
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~~A few home truths never break the ice~~
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| | Re: My Final Words
« Reply #4 on Jun 30, 2006, 9:57pm » | |
Just wanted to tell you, Tori:
Through this game, I've seen you at your highest high, and your lowest low. I've come to fall into an alliance with you, which blossomed into a beautiful friendship. Now, I have one last question to ask you.
*Gets on one knee*
Will you...
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pop this zit for me?
Okay, okay, that was a gross joke.
Tori, I'm still sad that you were voted out in 10th place again. It should've been me instead of you, because I really didn't do anything to deserve 8th place. You might've been more able to scheme your way back into the game by somehow turning Stacy against everyone. It certainly was slim to none of that happening, but you would've tried harder than I ended up doing.
Anywho! One of the few good things that happened out of Asteria for me was our friendship. If Asteria never happened, we'd have to get over Wonderland which couldn't really happen. I'm glad that we met in Year 3, became one tribe in Year 5, and made a strong alliance. You were my best alliance partner in this game, and I'm sorry that we never got to Final 2 like I wished.
Anywho! I hope our friendship continues to blossom and that you do break your 10th place curse... I'm hoping you do!
Here's to our one-year anniversary. (We met somewhere around this time in Wonderland, I think.) *Raises bottle of champagne*
(I still had that extra bottle that I smuggled from the Anasazi/Sinti meeting )
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Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all. Sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all. But then you assure me: I'm a little more than useless... When I think that I can't do this, you promise me that I'll get through this and do something right, do something right for once... |
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Tori
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« Reply #5 on Jun 30, 2006, 10:16pm » | |
Oh Mark, you're so sweet.
But I won't pop your zit. 
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~~A few home truths never break the ice~~
~Don't you trust me?~
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